God is after your heart. He wants you near Him, and in fellowship with Him. Give Him everything, pray that your heart is opened to His word, and to His voice.
Heb 12:1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses (aka everybody in the world watching), let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance, the race that has been set before us.
If this great weight that you are wearing on this spiritual race is preventing you from running efficiently, and running to begin with, LET GO OF IT! In Christ’s powerful name, throw it off!
This is His instruction to us about our purity. 1 Thess 4:3-8
For this is the will of God, your sanctification; that is, that you abstain from sexual immorality; that each of you know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor, not in lustful passion, like the Gentiles who do not know God; and that no man transgress and defraud his brother in the matter because the Lord is the avenger in all these things, just as we also told you before and solemnly warned you. For God has not called us for the purpose of impurity, but in sanctification. So, he who rejects this is not rejecting man but the God who gives His Holy Spirit to you.
That last sentence is frightening. Reject this instruction, and you are rejecting God, AND the Holy Spirit He gives to us.